In Progress

Do we find the hope for lose of control, do we search the world for unsaciable calls. Whens the time we see the memories we keep are the memories we share with weak we seem to see. Be the curse on earth see the whole we share the words we feel at mother natures chair, the call of immortal the loss of the sun this is the feeling of us becoming one. How horrid we choose the soul will lose when the call of hearts become no more. You dream a dream when the world falls apart , save our souls for the ones that we call our home. Im not the prize you seek to see, The trophy of me is the one you need but the bearer of arms is the heart of betrayel when the world falls apart your the monster in me. An Awfully evil thing what have you done, this will to fight the tears we have not won, this feeling so down we should hope to be we are the breath you forgot to breath. So forget the we you no longer belong to me, the sun may rise and the sun may fall the days may be long and the nights not at all, We live to be the breath we breath in this world we seek our happiness we can always keep when the moment is right we will be the one and only the me and myself the keeper of dreams the memory of me in the nights we see when the dreams become a reality.
to be continued
-beautifulmistake19-

Loves Humiliation

The summation of my feelings in this isolation of bitter cold games is far worse then the ice of snow that seems to fall all around. The inclination of the memorization of your dedication was far to mute for me to understand this consumation of imagination. An unbearable trait we severe this fate of agonization for what once was felt was simply an improvization. The games we play were mere inclinations to the domination of the love sensation. We can never be this dream, we see this fear, we smile this cause, because we love this examination to our hearts dedication. The immobilization of seperation is a contradiction to this provication we seriously need help for our mental isolation to the feelings of loves complications. so to this infiltration to your complication be weary of my isolation to your provication of loves humilation. I rather save my suffocation for a deserving motivation to seize or portray my justification of Loves humiliation.

-Your beautifulmistakes imagination-

...Im at a loss

Im at a lost, Ive reached my point, I wish I knew how to calm the inner demons that tear your world apart. But a soul so freakishly deprived has no cure for the emotionally derived. I cant stop the hurt but I can be the scab that soothes the cut as it grows into scars. Your world is at a loss my mind has mentally forgot but we can heal this broken heart through hope and love and forgivness part. Take my hand and help me see there is one and you are me equals us together we will be forever a love together its enough to see the happy we seek. Ill Help you overcome your demons heart and be the light after the dark, I will help you see the inner me is the only thing youll ever need to heal this heart so freakishly decieved...

Confused

Confusion begets the next simple step when a few collde a new uprise comes into play but before the day comes to an end confusion tends to send the next one out of bend. A simple lose of words proclaims the next one who can take this blame for lose of control in a sense so real before the time is unaware of the minutes its sees before the day you cannot be the face I see in the game of unassociative decay. Do your worst confusions sets apart my mind is unaware of confusion beware. You mock my heart confusion lies so deep the part my heart forgot what this world says to the day we die the word of choice in confusion lie. Confusion lie is the say we cannot play the simple game, you have my heart to hold your own but you choose confusion all alone to be the creature of the night we cannot save our selves tonight. Your minds a maze I cant get through for confusion is the emeny in you, so lets de confuse our world tonight and be the confused no more its our natural right. Find the time see the space be confused no more be replaced by sense I will be surfaced to see confusions most vulnerable place we all hold within our very little confused mind.

-From the confused mind of your beautifulmistake-

My sperm donor

If I run away dont be afraid its just the insanity coming to reclaim its most valuable property. Dont search for me in this world I seek the only believable happy i see is the happy we wish we could be. An insane moment caught in the glimpse i thought this was it but reversed the kiss. Dont call my name or see my face you dont belong in this undesirable place, I reach for stars and push you down this demon come home to reclaim its crown while I wait for happy in sorrows lies you feed the dog that deserves to die, the blood will soak the mind will weep the insanity is finally reached its peak. The mind that makes me see that insanity lives in me so ill share your hope for survival not and be this reason to always be forgot. Dear donor you come to hope revive you refused this soul and buried me alive. I cant reclaim a smile so fast you came back home and i kissed your ass but threw me away as i saw your fate you disgusting beast of unimaginable hate, Dont look at me and the simularites we call eachother blood lined forever you freak of imperfect insanity. Dont deserve this me you see this me we know we will never be and be the dawn before we break you donor of the night my mother warned be by my side for you ill mourn for I not care why we hate this game of cards we play the fake of imaginable grief i hate your name that no longer bears the resemblance to my will  forget your blood brought me into this world you demon of dark I call my own be away while insanity comes to play.

Greater Then The Sun

Tears of joy stream down my face as I fall asleep in this wonderful grace you can seperate my heart for you today but steady as the wind Its our tonight. The tonight before the morn' the whisper in the dawn the smile we both crack as we wake in eachothers arms. A momentous occassion what have we got this will to fight and never be forgot as we roam in dreams our slumber calls come home to this place for which we intend never to fall, we drift asleep and dream of the day we can always keep in our reach this wonderful memory of you and me. For you and me are more then none and me and you are forever one, the one and only momentous love that calls to eachother lets fly above and see our world from the day we formed and be the dawn before the morn'. Be the seed before the growth, be the heart before the decay, we can be the womb for us to grow and love this life as more then us to feel these feeling that make it a must. You beautiful soul rest now and take these words into stride my heart you can have to be forever yours and glow this life we must become greater then the sun for I know we can love deeper then the ocean, to extend the deepest honer we must become the love of eachother we will be one.

-Abosutely and positively dreaming of you tonight, your beautifulmistake

Wonderful Love

What a wonderful wreck of emotions I have become, in a wonderful world of wonderers gone. A wonderful notion of gratification to be your only one is my instant motivation. Wonderful clearity for this whole we have become and wonderful bearear of my light be right by my side. Be the wonders we seek, the wonders we love be the wonderful man I know i can love, Share the wonders of our world to be the wonders of this life its a wonderful completion to my imsomniac mind. You wonderful soul of hopeless romance in a hopeless wonderful world of wonderers right you are my wonderer of the wonderful night. I cherish your wonders you wonderful soul of my wonderful dreams you seem to roam in this wonderful night right by your side you are my warm wonderful wonderer of this wonderful wondering flight in the hopeless romance of wonderers right of the wonderful beauty in the night we share the wonderful moment right by eachothers side this wonderful beauty called wonderful love you wonderful dove be my one and only beautiful wonderful love.

-From the wonderful wondering mind of your wonderful beautifulmistake-

Devil in a human suit

Dear Devil In A human suit,
Darkness, The ever wondering Fool who steals hearts and breaks hopeless souls. I dream of you all the time as you enter my mind and leave me in frieght as you enter the night. You took my heart and made me believe you were the angel in the light who could give me back my flight but you stole my happy as you found my weakness and forced a darkness much greater then evil. You beat down my will and stood up against me, I tried to fight but by the end of the night your charm took its toll and i was a servant in your dark sunlight. Devil In a human suit can you not call your name, will you not see your shame I as point out your the one to blame. The stealer of happy the motivator of sad, you lead a dark life you morally deprived Knight. My heart beats it last for you no more and my heart beats its first for me forever more. I will never give you the satifaction you once had when you controlled the life you pushed down with all your might. You devil in a human suit you dont deserve this greatness, I will forever be a stamp in your mind as the one who lost it all but found it when i stood up against you in the heart of my whole. Darkness will always surround the devil who wears the human suit all around, and bear your burden with wondering eyes you will never see my cry for you again you dark devil who finally lost his mind.
-From the mind of your beautifulmistake-

Attraction is a reaction

Attraction is a reaction to the chemical obstruction, In all sense perfect and real. My infatuation with your chemical destruction is completly a reaction by our love connection. Communication is the key in this imagination and lose of reality is a part of our tribulation. Do you see the complication in our love rehabilitation or do you see a cure in our hearts justification. I will part with capatilization in our celebration of the human station in all parts a complecated sensation that results in elevation to our destination and realization of every illumination we find perfect and real. Let me end this with a resolution to our love exhilaration and be it as it may I love your motivation to this never ending consolation known as love that is perfect and unreal.
-from thre mind of your beautifulmistake

For the sake of flying

 

If i could have but one wish in this world it would be to fly, Fly far away from sorrow, the misery and the human condition...Fly in the wrong direction at the right time just so I can contradict the right direction at the wrong time, Fly in circles so it never ends, Fly just to fly for the sake of being able to fly... But I cannot fly away from the misery and human condition, I cannot fly in the direction of my choosing, I cannot be at the mercy of the wind, and i cannot fly for the thrill of it, So I must embrace this Flightless life, I must Find the good in your misery and sorrows, tame your human condition, I must choose the wrong direction at the wrong time just so i can learn to choose the right direction at the right time, I must walk in a straight line to get to the place im searching for, and walk not for the sake of it but for the heart of being alive... And If I keep on walking without giving up hope then one day you will sweep me off my feet and teach me how to fly not because of one wish but because of the love that takes me away from the sorrow, the misery and the unbearable human condition, that little bit of love that makes you lose control of your direction, that beautiful love that makes you run in circles because you never want it to end, and i want to love you just for the sake of being in love...so if i must walk in this world i will find you and together we will Fly.

-From the mind of your beautifulmistake aka. Samistake-

To he who means so much to me

I want you in all your oneness, I want you in all your differences, I want you because I believe in your passion, form of control and never ending heart, I want you because you are you and no one else can be you, I want you because I like you, I want you because I opened my heart to you and forgave all my wrongs ive blamed myself for which occured in shutting the world out, I want you because i believe that you believe in me, I want only you because I can only see you in my future and I need you because you fill my day with laughter when I almost lost grip of that wonderful smile that shines for you every morning, I long for you to touch me the way you touched me that wonderful night, I love you because I knew at that moment I first saw you it just felt right, you are my song I cant help but dance to. If you feel for me what I feel for you then be'ath not shy but say'eth the word that brings our two hearts in tune to the perfect harmony, be what we were meant to be because we WANTED eachother, it was our destiny

Behind the darkness

 

Behind the darkness in this immortal flesh I see hope for all them years you have forgotten my name. I feel in love with you those days, The days that lead to the darkness and forever misery I never learned to run away from. But behind the darkness I finally see the light, the only light that ever mattered the only light that was ripped from the sky and given to me by the one summer evening when you touched my flesh in a manner that brought tears to my eyes. You are the perfect fit to my being, your are the finest horse in my stable, you are the love we search our entire lives for, but you are also my darkness for when you are not in my grasp the light goes dim and darkness surrounds...Surrounds with all its evil and tears me apart, the kinda darkness that leaves you blind. You are my light behind this darkness, my only reason for stumbling alone and blind untill I am once more reunited with your love, the love that ignites the flame and darkness forever goes away.

World at our fingertips

My hearts at a low it falls to short to feel anything at all. These tears are shed from the place I never wanted me to be and the whole ill never see in this game of hurt Ive fallen into this time to deep to feel anything at all. I wish sense was made of this confusion we feel for this feeling we cant control in our hearts mind of impossible souls i see no lie to this game of chance. If there is a sense of hope for our freedom then why not grasp it, why just let it go. Do you hear that im calling your name and seeing your face in my dreams lets be free of this insanity. Ill never understand why this is the worst feeling to be apart of something so beautiful yet be so far from the actual beauty of it. I may be in love and I may be weak but dont doubt this heart for not being strong enough to fight these words you flew to my mind. To see my heart is a choice you have no time to choose from whether it be yours or stay with me I give it freely to you my dear and with uncontrollable fear. Fear from a mass destruction of uneartly progression to make me vulnerable is a price im willing to pay just so you see my complete sincerity. Im willing to love you with everything i have left of me that wasnt gun down before and im willing to show you the greatest happiness the mind can be capable of but choose wisely my friend for its for real this time, no games, no gimmicks we can have the world at our fingertips. So dont deny you know you feel the same, its in your touch and the soft kisses we place on our eachothers lips. The simple way your hands grasped this heart im handing you for you will not regret we can have the whole world in our hands and love at our fingertips.

-From the heart of your beautifulmistake-

The stones

I feel like a stone in the shore here once there was one but now there is more, The feeling of glee surrounds the unbreakable tree and falling of hope raises its mask to get a glance at the world in her hands. The emptiness I feel is a bearable trait where once there was one there was never enough. Enough to be a momentous me in the never ending emotions of insanity. She reaches for heaven but falls two inches too short when she reaches her hand she falls to the ground and wipes her brow with a hopeful glow , never giving up her soul to fall like a stone in the wonderful world of emotional games and the ties we play that bear the remarkable decay.Do you see the sadness in her eyes as she opens up her mind and projects her life so full of hurt it brings a tear to wondering eye of the emotional guy who has her in his sights. He helps her see the world she could be and the ocean of love that flys like a dove to heavens above where she finally can touch the magical rush of the emotional luck. They embrace the shore of emotional galore as the stones cast thier shadows in the mornings downpour, those remarkable stones that make up the steps to finding the one thats makes me believe in momentous me.

-From the mind of your beautifulmistake-

Hear my call

Be the first, be the last, be the past or "the more", make me run, make me stride, make me stay right by your side, make you fly, make you feel, make you wish it stayed real, hide your gun, hide your heart, hide your soul within the dark, mark your fate. catch the bait, be the weak amoung the great, feel the love, feel the state, feel the heart unbreak, see the world, see the earth, see the ocean at its core, love that man, love that heart, love soul inside the dark, mark my words, hear my call "you are mine forever more."